Hey Lgbtq+ Pandas, How Did You Realize You Were Gay?

I guess I first realized I was gay when I was with my group in drama class and I couldn’t stop staring at the cutest boy I ever seen named Alonzo, but I was just like “no he’s too beautiful for me” in that moment I realized that I wasn’t heterosexual, and I wasn’t cisgender, I was trans and gay, and I was in denial about it for so long.

I kept looking at girls thinking they were cute, but I also was looking at guys thinking the same thing. I shrugged it off, but then one of my friends told me that she was pansexual. When I further investigated what that meant, I realized that I was pan, too!

I kissed a girl. That was 7 years ago.

I've always been some sort of gay. I realized when I started questioning my sexuality that since I was little- like 7 years old I had crushes on my girl best friends just thinking that they were extra special to me. and when I was 9 I particularly had a big crush on my best friend (still am her best friend, one of the closet people to me) but I didn't really know what gay was. Then in 7th grade I had a crush on a my friend (I have a lot of crushes on my friends 😭) and that's when I realized "Hey I like girls as well, not just boys!" I first identified as bi for like a week and looked into other terms. I'm Pan!! and very proud! my immediate family is very supportive (my mom has several pride shirts and we have a pride sign in the entrance if our house. my dad also constantly gets me rainbow stuff ❤️) and I have a girlfriend who I love so much and funnily enough my whole friend group is some sort of gay. My family in the south however is pretty homophobic and I don't think I will come out to them, or hide it for that fact. if they find out, they find out. Thanks for listening! 🏳️‍🌈🤍