Hey Pandas, Anything You Want To Get Off Your Chest?

The fact that I kinda looked up stuff related to being nonbinary/gender dysphoria coping strategies on my phone... when I went to remove it from my search history (transphobic parents) I realized that my parents disabled the "remove from history" option... and they check my history regularly... this isn't gonna end well

I overthink everything, which isn't great, and my bf said that he also overthinks stuff. He asked what I think about, I said mainly social stuff, and he said same, but also us sometimes. I asked him if he wanted to talk about it, he said no, and then had to go because of class. I did let him know if he needed to talk, I was there, but idk what else to do. I'm worried about it now, because I also sometimes overthink about our relationship, and I feel like talking about it all would help, but I don't know how to bring it up if he doesnt want to talk lmao

I’m finally feeling brave enough to confront the person who outed me as gay in front of my whole gym class, and call him out for calling me fat which is what started me to not eat anything.

All my bp besties want to kill themselves, and mermeow keeps putting themselves down >:(

Y'all don't give yourself enough credit for how amazing u are

idk what to do anymore

im just tired of everything. i kinda want to die, but i dont want to unalive myself. i just want to be in a car accident and die quickly or smth.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhewyfwyqe gfgdocusygluywrecsgadc im so fcking awful all the time iweqdiy23ndioewnoiuahdwpciwcq

The girl I have a crush on doesn't seem to care about me :c

idk, I think I am being like, sa'd or something... my father keeps like, touching me kinda weirdly and it makes me like really really scared. like, he touched my leg, but really, really high up. I kind of gasped and moved away, and he was like really angry and said "what the hell was that for? There's no need for that!" And I was just standing there, kind of in shock ig. It's happened a lot of other times recently as well, like I was just laying on my bed because it was 7:30 AM and my alarm for school went off. I was laying facedown because the sunlight was too bright. My dad came in the room and put his hand on... well, my 🍑. I had the same reaction and jumped away, and he got super angry. He's also kinda touched, like, my chest area kinda weirdly. I'm really scared but idk if this counts as sa so idk if I should report it. Maybe it is an accident. Idk.

It's like 10 pm, I was alone in my bedroom and I started getting rlly dysphoric and really upset. And that's when I got the "great" idea to decide to bind using duct tape. Worst idea ever, even though I feel a lot better about my chest/appearance. I can barely breathe. My breathing rate has slowed down quite a bit. I think I've caused damage too. My ribs really hurt. I don't really know what to do though, I can't afford a binder, and even if I could, I wouldn't be allowed to get one.

I can't get the duct tape off omg.

I literally can't breathe, my face is literally turning paler as we speak.

I think I'm gonna pass out.

But I need to bind somehow otherwise I get too dysphoric.

I think I might have Dissociative Identity Disorder. Idk it sounds really weird to say, but I just feel really disconnected from my body and everything around me, like the me in my brain doesn’t match up with the me in the mirror.

I haven’t been getting enough sleep and life just seems to be getting worse…