Hey Pandas, At What Moment Did You Realize You Were Gay? (Closed)

So, me realizing when I was gay.. It was unexpected, but it happened because over my middle school years I was thinking if whether or not I was interested in the same gender, but I didn't really push it. I just waited out to see if life would like, tell me, I guess? Then one day while I was in high school I had a crush on some boy, and we actually ended up talking and dating for some time. Guess you never really know until it happens. It was a lot for my family to take in considering how they're pastors, well, "Pentecostals", and I've already been disapproved by them about it, as well as people at my own church, and a challenge being one of my friends turning from supportive to just "ok with it", and being told it was wrong constantly, but I'm pretty much like this and will be for a while, because you are the way you are and no one else can change that. (I have made friends who are extremely supportive and aware of me, and that's what helps me through being looked at as an 'abomination'.) P.S, I'm not dating that boy anymore, just for a few months, but it's what helped me realize that I was gay.

When I found out I loved my best friend

Well i didn't realize for a while, in elementary school i think i liked my best friend (now gf hehe) but i didn't know, when i got into 5th grade i figured out that i was bi but my bestie liked someone else so i kept to myself. Finally in 6th grade i liked her a lot but then i dated a guy to distract myself bc she was dating some girl i HATED. in 7th grade (the grade im in now) we finally started to date and i thought i was gay but i think im bisexual. But maybe gay..? IDK.

I had a VERY good dream about Harley Quinn.

It was over quarantine, and I was watching Voltron: Legendary Defenders, for the first time. At one point I realized I had a crush on Pidge and I was like "Welp guess I'm Bi". Shortly after that i quested my gender for 7 months. Now I'm just trying to make my self look like a super fem boy, that is my life goal right now.

Probably around the sixth or seventh time someone asked me "Are you gay?" was when I decided to really take a look at my sexuality, and lo and behold, I'm gay!

I was 11. I knew I liked girls and boys. I kinda looked like a boy, and I got bullied about it. and yeah i dont even know why im posting this. but yeah thats my story

Looking back there were a lot of moments I SHOULD'VE noticed something was up (in elementary school I kissed a girl and we both agreed it was practice for boys, but then on two separate occasions different guys tried to kiss me and I noped out) But it took a couple things to realize. The first thing was a teacher of mine assigned a social injustice assignment and I had been assigned lgbtq rights. My YouTube recommended for a while was stuff about lgbtq rights and the occasional signs I should’ve known I was gay sooner. Out of curiosity I began watching a few, at the time secure in my heterosexuality. It’s important to note that I’d had a lot of “crushes” but dropped them as soon as it became inconvenient or they got a gf bc I wasn’t about to be problematic over something I wasn’t all that interested in. I thought that that was how crushes were. And I could never bring myself to mention one of the “crushes” aloud, even to my bffs. That was a level of commitment I couldn’t deal with. Well those crushes were actually, looking back a bad case of com het. Look it up if you don’t already know, it’s quite interesting. I had been talking to a guy, fully aware he sucked. But whatever I was bored so why not. And something in my head said oh you talk to him a lot your supposed to like him now right? And so another of the fake crushes began. It ended dramatically. He was awful and it led me to question if this was really what a crush was. A friend of mine who came out as trans suggested I may be aroace. The YouTube recommendations didn’t stop and got more intense over time. I started watching the signs I should’ve known I was gay sooner. And one suggested the lesbian master doc. It was for the most part, spot on. A friend had been “shipping” me with the jerk as a joke for a long time, (I swear it’s lighthearted and it doesn’t upset me, she was there for the drama) but I became more afraid of jokingly protesting it because what if she caught on? And if anyone saw my Spotify it was all over. The amount of times I’d listened to “girls” was shocking. But the song really pinned down how I was feeling. And that about brings us up to now. If anyone finds my Spotify or bored panda it’s all over. ik they’d be chill but still I’m not ready. So a big thx to the jerk that made me question those fake crushes. That’s about all he’s good for.

I am bi so... it was when I was 8 and I stared liking my friend... I felt really awkward.

I was talking to a couple of my LGBT friends and we were talking about why I don't let other girls hug me (I now know it's Gay panic) and they said "straight girls don't get nervous when other girls touch them" (which was true in this case)

i was on here and was looking at art that someone did of characters from tv shows and movies. that's when I realized that I was not straight lol.

When I was in 5th grade I realized I liked girls. Then In 7th grade, I finally found my true self. I found out I was non-binary and lesbian. Most of my friends could already tell I was lesbian. They were all shocked when I said I was non-binary. and thank u to all of those who have supported me on BP. and real life.