Hey Pandas, Do You Need To Vent? (Closed)

My mental health is s**t lately, I hate it so much I just want to scream. I’m losing my sanity too, but my mental health is not really the greatest lately.

Yes. I have to consider my future at an age most don't. I'm a junior in highschool and sure that's when people usually start thinking about their future like college and a career but I have to start thinking about buying a home, caring for kids ect. My dad is dying, was given 3-5 years 7 years ago and is bedridden now. He can't afford anymore medication as of a few months ago and so his passing is bound to happen any day now. I have 4 younger siblings that live with him now as their mother is a drug addict and cant go with them. All of our older siblings are also drunks or addicts so i'm the only other one that would take them in. It's that or foster care. I have to figure all of this out and what will happen. I have a job, i do sports and other extracirriculars but the second he passes i will have to quit those, go fulltime and maybe even drop out just to care for them. It isn't fair.

Omg yes!!!! We have recently had some shifting of duties at my work. My office-mate sent an email yesterday to a coworker in another department who has a login to order office supplies and asked her to please order a toner cartridge for our printer. She forwarded the email to me and CC'd our VP of Operations telling me to see the below request from the woman who SITS NEXT TO ME!!!!!
I responded and told her I don't have an office supply log in anymore because of the recent changes, which was why she was asked to order the toner. If i could have ordered it, my friend would have just turned to me and asked me to do it. So anyway, this woman emails me back and tells me to email a whole different person to ask for a new log in. It would have taken 30 seconds to just order the dang toner cartridge.....ugh!!!!!!
Ok....I feel better now....thank you.

I can't stand my mother. I'm moving out because she is controlling AF. She will not give me time to myself. I go to take a shower and she barges in. I locked the door, and she unlocked it. B**** I locked the door to get away from your constant nagging. So you unlocked it and began nagging again! Stop trying to make me the way you want me! I want to cry but can't because my body won't let me. Why won't my body let me? Because it was drilled into my brain my entire life that crying is weakness! Stop trying to get me to hate my dad because he actually let's me be myself! Stop treating my guy friends like they're all trying to sell me drugs in the frickin parking lot.

I get really happy and then really sad and invisible feeling and it SUCKS. And also I find new obsessions, drive my sister insane with them until she gets mad but she doesn’t understand I HAVE TO tell someone or it will like, burn a hole in my brain by I get why she gets mad, and then the obsession will fade and I just feel empty afterwards until the next story comes along. Also I am realizing I have problems with reality, if I dont have a story/ role play to think about I get physically agitated at everything.

My “ friends” keep singing the Fortnite battle pass song

Yes.
I used to be so jealous of Harry Potter because cuz he could talk to snakes but then I realized I’ve been doing so already. My crush and I are friends but he doesn’t know how to make fried rice so I can’t marry him.