Hey Pandas, Is There Anything You Want To Get Off Your Chest? (Closed)

What do I want to get off my chest? At the end of the day - MY BRA!

My best friend and the guy I like had a secret crush on each other five years ago and never got to confess. When they both realised it recently and started talking again they both used me to vent.
If they had a conversation one night, the next morning he would call me to tell me what happened and that evening she called me to tell me as well.
I played dumb to both of them. It went on for a month
It's been two years and they still don't know that I had spies on both sides.

I used to be close with my sister but now she either want to hug me and talk baby talk, or yell at me to get out of her room or to go away when she literally just invited me in. I dont think i did anything that she is mad about. I really want to be close with her again because I need someone to talk to.

I'm having a vacation soon, and I'm feeling very anxious; time seems to be standing still.

I'm bi. I talk about it so much online but I haven't come out to anyone I know, and it hurts that I trust a bunch of random internet strangers over my family and friends (no offense to all you random internet strangers). My family is generally accepting, but I'm still scared that something will change their mind or they will just hate me. That's pretty much it though lmao

The guy I liked said he was tired of waiting for me and hooked up with his ex. So I made a rage painting of that girl's name (it looked like one of those Find the hidden words paintings ) And I gave it to him as a gift (without telling him what's hidden in it)
Now they've broken up and he hates the mere mention of her but he still has that painting.
It's like a secret curse.

Something I want to just get off my chest is the fact that I may not be able to find my friend as he may not have a phone. I really want the Internet to help me find him. I think I have found his address though. Getting sad just thinking about it.

I hate it when people discourage others from doing something just cause they have a bad experience /failed at it.
I would appreciate a caution but don't make me feel bad for wanting to do it.

Like marriage for example. A lot of people bash the mere mention of it, people my age make you feel stupid for even being in a committed relationship with one person and older people always tell horror stories about it. I hate that. If you don't have anything good to say then don't say anything.

I wish people weren't so angry all the time. Never thinking about the good things in life that are actually important like love, family, the freedoms we have ect.... Smiles are free and you never know who may need one. Everyone has problems but it doesn't make them any better being angry or unkind. You only live once. At least put forth an effort to try to make the best of it.

I’m very worried about my dog. His mobility is declining and his breathing is getting louder and louder, almost like it’s getting harder for him. I know the right thing to do would be to take him to the vet to make sure everything’s okay, but at his age, they’d probably just tell me to put him down. Honestly, that may be what’s best for him at this point, because I know he’s only going to get worse, but it’s going to be very hard. I’ve had this dog since I was 2 years old. My earliest memory is of him. So I don’t know what to do.

I say this as an adolescent going into college later this month: as much as I want to believe I know what I want for my future, I really don’t. I like taking pictures, but with more personalized equipment, like an iPhone, a GoPro, and a drone, instead of a more ‘pro’ DSLR camera or some equivalent. I have found that I like working with younger kids, but I can only do so for so long. I am pretty good with fixing Apple devices, but I’m not sure if I can rely on that for a reliable source of revenue.
On top of that, how can I be sure my childhood brain cancer and epilepsy won’t change anything anymore? I’m still on a prescription for epilepsy; how am I going to balance that with work? How can I be sure that my job will give me time to recover from any surgeries, should they be needed? Can I trust my employer to be able to adapt to my medical needs?
Lastly, why has my generation been ignored so much in more recent years? During the pandemic, everyone was focused on politics, the effects of Covid on adults, climate change, and the economy, to name a few. Meanwhile, adolescents were pretty much ignored; so much so, in this past year, to varying degrees, I have been affected by two people killing themselves, on dates 5 months apart. Stepping away from that topic, everyone says we ‘are the future,’ yet we can’t vote, don’t get a say in topics that really matter to us, and whenever we try to speak up, someone tells us to sit down and shut up, and that we ‘don’t know what we’re talking about.’ Just… how can most millennials be this messed up at the same time?