Hey Pandas, What Have You Never Told Anyone Before? (Closed)

I’m scared of my parents

i dont know how to fully express myself. most of my emotions are forced and I don't know what it feels like to have a crush on someone. I don't even know if I am capable of liking someone like that. I feel like all I can do is exist without knowing how to truly feel. or something like that but idk

uh. I hate mirrors. they make me pick out all my little insecurities. and I doubt when people say I'm pretty.

my entire life story, it's horrible and no one should know about it but I'm telling what the secret is

I'm not comfortable with the length of my hair. It used to be short but I hated how everyone judged me on how short it was. I grew it out but I rarely ever wear it down because otherwise, I get really hot.

I cannot remember much of my childhood I suspect it might be because I may have been sexually abused by a relative. I know that at least 2 of my uncles are convicted child molesters and I suspect that there are several more in my family.

Not telling. Then it wouldn’t be a secret!

That time I lost my lunchbox at school when I was like six, I din't actually lose it but accidentally threw it over the fence and the staff could not get it back for 2 weeks.

That I don't understand how human connection works but I fake it pretty well. Pretty sure I have a mild case of attachment disorder due to childhood issues.

I cant remember anything from my life from before 6 years old.

Well, there are people that know, but I love watching some youtubers. they make me feel happy, and make me laugh, and sometimes cry. it's not much, I have just been lying to my family for three years now, and i'm sort of sick of it. I really want to tell them, but I know other things that I love to would be taken away.

When I was five I stuck a handful of beads up my b******e and I had to finger them out

I’m always scared by my music teachers. It’s not like they are mean to me or anything, but I’m pretty good in band and I’m just afraid that I will mess up badly sometime when I play my E. Bass

I’m fat