Hey Pandas, What Was The Moment Where You First Started Questioning Your Sexuality? (Closed)

Had a crush on my brother's girlfriend, first time I remember

I was leaving the bus and getting off and was saying goodbye to my ex best friend. All of a sudden, I had a sudden urge to kiss her goodbye. I resisted and left, and I was very confused. It only happened once. But it happened again with some other girls, including someone who didn’t like me much. I was so confused.

I have a crush on a girl for the first time. I've also got a boyfriend so we'll see where that one goes

I was talking to my best friend when I was 8 and the feeling of falling in love shot threw my heart. But since I was 8 I didn’t know what that feeling was. Then at night when I was 10 I kept thinking about that feeling. All of a sudden I just realized that I was in love with my best friend. I kept changing my sexuality left and right after that but as of now I’m lesbian. :)

I have never questioned my sexuality.

I don’t really know when it started but as of now, I can’t tell a thing. I can’t figure out what different types of attraction feels like. (is this romantic, sexual, or do I just want to be better friends? Or do I not want to lose them do I’m telling myself that it’s a crush?? I can’t tell a thing, I just know that there are two people I feel different about.) But I’d say that in theory, I’d be open to dating someone of any gender.

This is not an answer to the question, but I really want to share this: One time in college I asked my (has kept kosher since birth) mom what she would say if I (F) told her I was gay. Her response was, without missing a beat: “Well, I hope you’d find a nice Jewish woman.” I think that was the most open minded AND close minded statement I’ve ever heard.

The short answer:
Zendaya in “the greatest showman”
The long answer:
my identical twin came out as gay, which gave way to a lot of thought into my sexuality, even though I didn’t tell anyone my thoughts about it. I didn’t want to be the same as my twin. If you haven’t met any twins yet, at least in my experience, they hate being compared. So us both being gay, would be to weird. I needed to be someone other than my sibling, so I hid my gayness. I was also looking on BuzzFeed, where I found a thread of 3 videos about “Kate and Jazz, redoing their house” or something similar to that. I had never rlly seen normal people living their lives normally while being gay. Then, and still now, the media is horrible at representing LGBTQIA+ members. That helped a lot, as well as plenty of “am I gay?” Tests. Also I realized that “girl crushes” and “if I was a boy, I would SO want to be with my friend” and “I’m not jealous of of you and *insert generic boy* I just don’t think he is ummmmm nice to you! Totally that!” Or even “do you want to practice kissing for boys?” I also realized searching “pretty girls with no makeup on” isn’t very straight. (Actually, searching that is how I found bored panda) also me listening to Taylor Swift “Lover” while thinking about my toxic best friend is “heterosexual”