Hey Pandas, What's A Song That Stirs Up Emotion In You?

##Heh. I could write a thesis on this. I'm a musician so music threads through everything in my life.##

~~Use Me Up (Angel's Order) - Paranoid DJ~~

The first time I heard this one it rang so deeply within me I stopped dead until the song ended. I tend to identify more with Arackniss than Angel but the driving need to feel everything until your capacity to feel is burned out expressed in the song spoke to me in a way I haven't felt since the first time I heard Hurt by NIN. I have done stupid & reckless things in pursuit of that numbness, I can sometimes get close to when I've thrown myself into playing music/dancing.

**Other songs in this vein**
+ Hurt - NIN
+ Hurt - Johnny Cash (Trent wrote this song so Johnny could cover it years later.)
+ Sweating Bullets - Megadeth
+ How Can I Laugh Tomorrow When I Can't Even Smile Today - Suicidal Tendancies
+ No Children - The Mountain Goats
+ F*****g Hostile - Pantera
+ Snap Your Fingers, Snap Your Neck - Prong
+ So What - Ministry
+ Suffocating Right - Neuroticfish

~~Change The Order (Lucifer's Story)/Soldier's Orders (Alex's Theme) - Paranoid DJ/Akira Yamoaka & Mary E. McGlynn~~

As an ex-employee of the American Military Industrial Complex/ Military Brat/ daughter & mother of vets the first time I heard Soldier's Orders I cried. I'm given to intense self reflection & possessed of a need to know *why* I do everything that I do. I've also spent my literal lifetime watching what the military did to my Mom, my Dad, my step-Dad, my son, various other relatives, & myself... finding the internal conflict of not really being able to see a difference between the 'good' guys & the 'bad' guys so succinctly expressed in a song in a video game was intense.

I am also a survivor of severe religious abuse & a 'recovering Christian' so the story of Lucifer has always appealed to me. Adding that layer to the themes of questioning if you're truly on the 'right' side & what it means to have no choice in following orders you think are wrong hit me even harder.

**Other songs**
+ God's Gonna Cut You Down - Johnny Cash
+ Wrong Side of Heaven - Five Finger Death Punch
+ God Is A Bullet - Concrete Blonde
+ Perfect Sunrise - Stromkern
+ Father Dearest - Urn
+ Defying Gravity - Edina Menzel (Wicked)

~~I've lost too many people over the years. These songs remind me of them.~~

+ Tomorrow, Wendy - Concrete Blonde
+ Blasphemous Rumours - Depeche Mode
+ Rebels of the Sacred Heart - Flogging Molly
+ Institutionalized - Suicidal Tendancies
+ A Change Is Gonna Come - The Gits
+ Gloomy Sunday - Billie Holiday
+ Pepper - B******e Surfers
+ People Who Died - Jim Carroll

~~Lastly, songs that make me feel really happy.~~

+ Ghengis Khan - Miike Snow
+ I Wanna Be Evil - Eartha Kitt
+ Doctor Online - Zeromancer
+ Ace of Spades - Motorhead
+ The Sparrows & The Nightingales - Wolfsheim
+ Ich Bin Ein Auslander - Pop Will Eat Itself
+ Pro-test - Skinny Puppy
+ The System is Du - StrongBad/Rammstein
+ Like A Prayer - BiGod 20
+ Noonerschaft - Stromkern
+ Discovery Channel - Bloodhound Gang

Homura by LiSA. I feel like bursting out in tears every time I hear it. It's the song played after the death of my favorite character in Demon Slayer, & also my friend shared it with me a day before he died.

'Puff the Magic Dragon'. My dad used to sing it as a kid. My father has significant mental issues, life with him was chaotic. But when they were singing, they seemed happy, normal. When I hear it, or singing it in my head I feel this combination of nostalgia and melancholy.

Strings by Shawn Mendes. I met my crush when I was 3 years old, and (s)he taught me how to do algebra.

Landslide from the band Fleetwood Mac, it always makes me ugly cry, they used that damn song in a Budweiser beer commercial, I hate that commercial so much, because I can’t listen to that song without feeling really miserable.

“Do You Realize” by The Flaming Lips. Give it a go.

Waiting on a Miracle

I Built a Friend

I can’t really relate to the song, but it almost makes me cry every time

Goodbye to a World by Porter Robinson.

The entire 'Worlds' album, and that outro track specifically, will change ANY strong opinions about EDM (electronic dance music) not being real music. Robinson clearly put his heart and soul into this record, and honestly, the final track made me cry several times. It's lighthearted tone with it's end-of-the-world themed lyrics make you think about your loved ones, your family, your friends, your pets the online friends you made where some haven't logged on in years...

It's really good. You gotta listen to it.

I'm alright by Twiztid. Reminds me of a few friends who are no longer with us.

Tear jerker by Jamie Madrox is another one that reminds of my friends long since passed.

Only one by the score

Citta Vuota by Mina. Italian music hits me, the strings, the beauty of the vocals, a real tear jerker.

“True Trans Soul Rebel” by “Against Me!”
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