Recently discovered/learned about covert narcissism.
It explains many, many abused things about my relationships from others. First from my parents and now from my missus of 20yrs.
It’s like I knew I wasn’t feeling right for all my life. Like something wasn’t right. I knew there was nothing wrong with me but I wasn’t out of the hole. Until recently that is.
I’ve broken down almost every day this week at this crude reality. But relieved that “I knew it” wasn’t all in my head
Edit: yep, I’m getting therapy for this and other things I’ve been dragging around for decades.