I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

It all started with a random picture in a random place that I can barely remember. Trying to pull myself together, I went places but the memories seemed to haunt me. I was feeling angry, frustrated, deceived, betrayed and manipulated. 

I wonder if you can relate?

Well, probably it is too early for me to ask this question since you are here to look at my artwork. But let's get to know each other a little bit more before I show everything that you are about to see. I promise you that you won't see anything scary or blood-related. I'm over that. 

Lately, I was reading a book written by Susan Sontag called 'On Photography'. She wrote that photography is a tool to promote your nostalgia. 

"Photography is an electic art, a twilight art. Most subjects photographed are, just by virtue being photographed, touched with pathos. An ugly or grotesque subject may be moving because it has been dignified by the attention of the photographer. A beautiful subject can be the object of rueful feelings, because it has aged or decayed or no longer exists. All photographs are 'memento mori'. To take a photograph is to participate in another person's (or thing's) mortality, vulnerability, mutability. Precisely by slicing out this moment and freezing it, all photographs testify to time's relentless melt."

I love to record people's emotions. Just like Susan wrote, slice out the moment and freeze it. Hence, I froze the moment of what I thought was the happiest period in my life. Old photos bring back a time, a place, and a life that are long gone. They remind you the people that are long gone. Unfortunately, I spent five or six years trying to heal myself from depression. I did not know how to make it back then. I disconnected from almost everything. 

In the process of self-healing,  photography and getting closer to nature helped me a lot. Now I see everything from a different, colorful perspective. I love things in colors and I'm grateful for everything. 

I am a fine art photographer from Malaysia. In this series, I combined some of my favorite photos from "Queit" and "Happiness is Simple" into one complication.

I hope you enjoy it and thank you very much for reading!

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