The only creature that holds onto my broken soul and keeps me away from suicide.
His name is Gaho. In Korean, it means Divine protection. He is the answer to my prayers. I prayed to God days before my birthday to send me someone to hold onto, to keep me away from hurting or even worse, killing myself. And he gave me Gaho on February 11, 2011. At first, I haven't realized that he is the answer to my prayers. But as the days turn to months and to years. God helped me to understand his purpose in my life. Every time I feel depressed, to the point I'm ready to kill myself, God keeps whispering to me, saying "Remember my gift to you." Gaho is truly my divine protection. Protecting me from myself. Keeping me sane. The adhesive that holds onto my broken soul. Only creature I truly love. I never loved anyone like I love him. One of the most precious gift that God gave me.
I always pray to God to give him some more time with me. I'm so afraid that I will lose him one day.
I almost lose him twice. But he always come back to me.
I feel bad that I can't give him all the toys, all the luxuries in a dog's life. The only thing I could give him is my whole love. I don't know how to give back all his hard work for me. My shower of kisses is not enough, not even my I love yous, compare to what he gave to me for these past years.
He's a truly wonderful gift from God. A divine creature that us humans never deserve. Yet, God sends them to us. To comfort us, to fill some parts of our life. And in my case, to keep me away from killing myself.
I don't know if someone is willing to waste their time just to read this. But if you're suffering in depression or any kind of mental illness like I do. And if you have pets like I do, just always think of your precious little baby that you might left behind. They are here to help us. Not just to be our pet.
And to my dearest Gaho, even though you don't know how to read and you don't own social media, I still want to you to know and to share to these people how much you help me a lot in my life. You're the most precious thing for me. You're worth everything to me. The only reason why I can't kill myself. Even though you're not a pupper anymore, you're still my smol bean. My precious one. My dream come true. The answer to my prayer. My God-given divine protector. You are a God's gift to me. And I love you so much. Please don't leave me just yet. Stay with me buddy.